Showing posts with label demons. Show all posts
Showing posts with label demons. Show all posts

Saturday, 16 January 2016

Lovers are strangers

From the moment I discovered love, I never stopped loving since. Sometimes I loved for a years, sometimes for months, but in the meantime, I learned how to love for days or hours. Something strange is happening to love in general; if you ask me, I would say that broken people are happening all around the globe. 

It seems that everyone is trying to love less instead of loving more. If they are engage in emotional relationship, people prefer to receive more tenderness, care, affection and attention, rather than to give it in return for no cause. I find it to be very odd and disturbing.

I was loved and I loved back even more, through all my life, but I never thought of it as my weakness, just the opposite, it was my strength from the beginning.  

When on earth became important whom will call first and what shall be said? Love is mute, but it speaks all languages. 
Disposed and offered feelings by someone are there to be cherished and appreciated, not to be analyzed and abused in personal war with your own demons. Simply, I do not understand when love affairs happen to be transformed into war zones. It is inevitable: to kill or to be killed. 

It is clear to me that lovers fight; they fight to improve their relationship; they do it to refresh their sexual life; they fight because they care or despite that, because they are not strong enough to change their bad habits instantly; change requires time. It seeks for support, understanding and patience of the significant other. In order to evolve together, we have to accept that we have to proceed with certain changing process of ourselves. It is hard to achieve that advance; it is even harder to do it alone. 

If we do not succeed in improvement of ourselves as a better, smarter, more wise kind of person, we often intend to blame our partner, third person if needed, the situation, the circumstances and everything we could think off, but we will never accept our defeat. We will never admit we are the one whom failed. 
We will look for "better"! Why people always think they can "do better"? What better means in terms of love? It means that you will become that person who loves more.  

It is so sad to live in ignorance. It is deeply disappointing to know people spend their lives in fear of unknown; they even love in fear; in fear of being hurt. Love does not hurt, dear people, expectations does.    

After all fights with yourself and with others in name of love, only one acknowledgment remains: lovers are strangers. I found it to be beautifully inspiring for ours future love affairs, regardless for how long the love will last. 

Friday, 8 January 2016

When I was younger I used to believe I need a man

When I was younger I used to believe
I need a man. 
I needed him to support 
Ideas, 
I would abounded myself 
after three days.
  
To share
Enthusiasm about promising or brilliant 
Almost possible plan.
Sharing is caring, 
I used to believe,
Criticizing without concrete arguments
Is not. 
He does not understands 
or supports me. 
Let's question our affection  
Our common interests, 
Our love. 

I needed a man to join 
Emotional roller coaster
of mine.
To share a passion 
For unpredictable, 
Trusting in Unknown, 
Spontaneously leading me, 
Into madness. 

I needed him to tolerate 
The storms I produce; 
To cuddle right afterwards. 

I needed him
To kiss me often
To kiss me good. 
To fight before sex

Now and again.
The storm is coming.

I needed a man 
To feel safe
From my demons
And dreams. 

When I was younger I used to believe 
I need a man.
Now I know
I want to need him again.